Special Scary Feelings

by Callen Damornen

Secretly kept in my heart

The feelings so deep

Sometimes they are dark

Yet they feel so warm.

They comfort me as I sleep

Thoughts of a close secret

One that touches me

Can never be revealed

Would you ever understand

The depths of my soul?

How my heart yearns

Wishing you were here.

Cold as ice and sharp

Steel and metal hardness

Builds up around my heart

Where you should be.

Ignore the feelings

Ignore the thoughts

What will never be

Will always pain me.

To be with the pain

Is better than without

To have you there

Instead of gone away.

Is it wrong to want more?

Is it wrong to feel for you?

Is it wrong to hold back?

Is it wrong to stop?

It feels so good

Yet feels so bad

I know it's wrong

It feels so right.

Trapped in a nightmare

One where I don't awake

Slap me to reality

Come and rescue me.

© Callen Damornen